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A moving and gripping novel featuring a young woman running from her past.

'I implore you to read (or listen to) it' - Marian Keyes, author of Again, Rachel'One of the best books I’ve ever read' – Ruth Jones, author of Love UntoldAn all-consuming story of loneliness, obsession and how far we go for the ones we love, If I Can't Have You is the debut novel by Charlotte Levin.After fleeing Manchester for London, Constance Little attempts to put past tragedies behind her and make a fresh start. When she embarks on a relationship with the new doctor at the medical practice where she works, she’s convinced she’s finally found the love and security she craves.Then he ends it.But if life has taught her anything, it’s that if you love someone, you should never let them go.That's why for Constance Little, her obsession is only just beginning . . .'Exceptionally raw and visceral and painfully funny' – Emma Flint, author of Little Deaths'Darkly comic and beautifully written’ – Woman‘Blackly comic, heartrendingly sad’ – Best'Compulsively readable and darkly funny’ – Laura Marshall, author of Friend Request

'One of the best books I've ever read' Ruth Jones'This is superb . . . and compulsive and disturbing and very well done indeed' Harriet Tyce, author of Blood Orange_______________________________________If I Can't Have You by Charlotte Levin is an all-consuming novel about loneliness, obsession and how far we go for the ones we love. My name is Constance Little. This is my love story. But this isn't the way it was supposed to end. After fleeing Manchester for London, Constance attempts to put past tragedies behind her and make a fresh start. When she embarks on a relationship with the new doctor at the medical practice where she works, she's convinced she's finally found the love and security she craves. Then he ends it. But if life has taught her anything, it's that if you love someone, you should never let them go. That's why for Constance Little, her obsession is only just beginning . . . _______________________________________'An exceptionally raw and visceral and painfully funny novel' Emma Flint, author of Little Deaths'Brilliant. A perfect and completely terrifying depiction of heartbreak and obsession' Sarah Powell'A blackly comic but heartfelt story of love and loneliness, with an endearing and damaged heroine' Sunday Mirror'A darkly comic and beautifully written debut novel' Woman'Blackly comic, heartrendingly sad - a brilliant debut novel' Best'Compulsively readable and darkly funny with pin-sharp characterisation' Laura Marshall, author of Friend Request

'Simultaneously tragic and uplifting. And I have to say at times funny. Charlotte Levin is SUCH a clever writer . . . A magnificent read' – Ruth Jones, author of Love Untold'This emotional rollercoaster is alternately heart-breaking and hopeful. I was gripped' – Daily MailA gripping, darkly comic tale of searing loss, coercive control and the consequences of taking the wrong path.Every morning, Janet Brown goes to work cleaning offices. It calms her – cleanliness, neatness. All the things she’s unable to do with her soul can be achieved with a damp cloth and a splash of bleach. However, the guilt she still carries about a devastating loss that happened eleven years ago, cannot be erased so easily.When Janet finds herself involved in a train crash, she recognizes her chance to do what she couldn’t all those years ago. And she makes a decision. As news spreads of Janet’s actions, her story inspires everyone around her and, for the first time, her life has purpose. Her future is filled with hope.But Janet's story isn't quite what it seems. As events spiral out of control, she soon discovers that coming clean isn't an option. Because if Janet washes away the lies, what long-buried truths will she finally have to face?If I Let You Go by Charlotte Levin is a deeply moving and gripping portrayal of a woman coming to terms with loss.

A deeply moving novel featuring a mother coming to terms with a tragic loss.

A Richard and Judy Book Club pick, If I Let You Go is a darkly comic tale of searing loss, coercive control and the consequences of taking the wrong path.'Simultaneously tragic and uplifting . . . Charlotte Levin is SUCH a clever writer' - Ruth Jones, author of Love UntoldEvery morning, Janet Brown goes to work cleaning offices. It calms her – cleanliness, neatness. All the things she’s unable to do with her soul can be achieved with a damp cloth and a splash of bleach. However the guilt she still carries, about a devastating loss that happened eleven years ago, cannot be erased.When Janet finds herself involved in a train crash, she recognizes her chance to do what she couldn’t all those years ago. And she makes a decision. As news spreads of Janet’s actions, her story inspires everyone around her and, for the first time, her life has purpose. Her future is filled with hope.But Janet's story isn't quite what it seems. And, as events spiral out of control, she soon discovers that coming clean isn't an option. Because if Janet washes away the lies, what long-buried truths will she finally have to face?If I Let You Go by Charlotte Levin is a deeply moving and compelling portrayal of a woman coming to terms with loss.

She’s locked the door to the world. Is love strong enough to open it? Following a tragic incident, rising-star Beatrice is struggling. Having retreated from life entirely, she finds herself unable to leave the house. With her acting career now over, (Though don’t tell her agent), and discovering who her real friends aren’t, her world has shrunk—its only inhabitants, an elderly Polish neighbour, the world’s most boring postman, her therapist with issues of her own, and Piano Bitch from across the road. Thank God for Matisse, her beloved, foul-mouthed parakeet. When she hires Irish gardener, Finn, to tame the overgrown garden that she cannot even enter, things take an unexpected turn. Their connection blossoms, and she’s no longer isolated and alone. But can a relationship survive the restrictions that control her, or will love enable Beatrice to confront her fears and step outside again?

Your next reading obsession, the poignant and darkly humorous long-awaited new novel from the bestselling author of If I Can’t Have You, perfect for fans of Sorrow and Bliss and Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine. She’s locked the door to the world. Is love strong enough to open it? Following a tragic incident, rising-star Beatrice is struggling. Having retreated from life entirely, she finds herself unable to leave the house. With her acting career now over, (Though don’t tell her agent), and discovering who her real friends aren’t, her world has shrunk—its only inhabitants, an elderly Polish neighbour, the world’s most boring postman, her therapist with issues of her own, and Piano Bitch from across the road. Thank God for Matisse, her beloved, foul-mouthed parakeet. When she hires Irish gardener, Finn, to tame the overgrown garden that she cannot even enter, things take an unexpected turn. Their connection blossoms, and she’s no longer isolated and alone. But can a relationship survive the restrictions that control her, or will love enable Beatrice to confront her fears and step outside again?