Kirjahaku

JAIISEL, awakens from a sexual dream that onsets her menstruation. An overshadowed demon feeds off her during maturation. A clever tomboy, she questions everything taught in temples. She befriends JESUS. They strike a blood-bond. Jaiisel struggles between her sexuality and desire for real love. Aged seventeen, she gains knowledge in a king's harem and West India with tantric master called THALLUS. Returning home, after fourteen years, she survives similar trials to Jesus in the Sinai desert. Her demon, to its shame and future revenge, is forced to releases its hold upon her. The story then parallels biblical stories with a telling of a story from the perspective of a reluctant, iconoclastic female guru. The fates of Jaiisel and Jesus end onto the cross. Jaiisel's demon exacts its revenge by possessing Judiah to finally love her on the cross. Post death, she discovers herself and Jesus are part of the same soul.

Primal energies, inherent in us, manifest differently depending on the person and circumstances. The primal energy is the creative force typically used for procreation or genuine, healthy connection for mutual pleasure rather than sexualised due to external socially damaging factors. Sexual energy is not for sex because sex is a loving act that requires primal, human desire. In contrast, the sexual energy is explored here as the emerging animal craving force that ravages minds and incubates by quickly putting people into situations that should be rooted in healthy desire and healing, yet usually end up sexualised, abusive or misguided. This book is written for the male and female reader to inquire and understand respectively how unstable male desire unbalances one to react sexually rather than act lovingly. Our shadow and demon are characters seen as culprits destabilising our higher self or personal entity away from balance and bliss. Our entity harmonises the feelings so that sexual energy is a healing force for creativity and not dissipation via destructive sexual activity. The book will appeal to the man who wishes to grok his bad sexual habits and further surprise the woman by fulfilling her most secret fantasy; a truly lustful, loving connection. It may also appeal to the woman looking to understand men's addiction to sex more simply or to the male therapist wanting to better deal with his experiences of the female client, or couples and singles wishing or liking insight into how to deal with personal sexual excitement versus the voyeuristic heart feeling axis required to handle nights of curated excess. The author draws upon his thirty-seven years' experience massaging women to guide men through their desire issues with women. He has a jokey high moral tone to stir up the reader and question their motivations. Each chapter addresses the awkward subject of sex by revealing various ways of holding back the initial desires until natural healing and connection occurs with another person. The subjects of human versus animal natures, dealing with projections from others, jealousies, malicious gossip, misunderstandings, perversions, and rape fantasies are all dealt with as symptomatic of the sexual energy unchecked and the heart disturbed, and bodies abused. He offers dark and amusing practical examples from his work and life. It is for men to analyse and manage themselves during moments of overstimulated desires for women - as encouraged by pornography and the media that have taken men away from their wholesome association with pure lust, the celebration of bodily functions. Ultimately, this book is truthful yet tongue in cheek, severe but playful because nothing in it is the truth except to guide one to the examples of your truth via experience and not information alone. So, join Emanuel Ray as he strolls through his memory, recalling his experiences as a masseur, sensual therapist, and witness to sexual awakenings and adventures. See and learn how sexual energy can transform for self-healing and harness more than simple, mindless sex.

NATHAN PALMER's last contract kill goes awry, and as he faints, the doorbell is ringing. He wakes up five days later, in southern India, with no memory of how he got there. He has contracted Typhoid and recovers with a martial arts family where he learns meditation. Flash forward to an older version of Nathan, the assassin, who opens his door to a young lady, CLAUDIA. He is reeling from the doorbell sound that plagues him for twenty-four years. She claims to be his daughter. His shock causes a flashback to events in southern India that lead up to meeting her mother, ALINA during which time the first half of the story interchanges with a dream sequence where his dream avatar - also called Nathan - wakes up in a futuristic high-tech prison apartment. He has no memory of his crime he committed and wakes up every morning asking his computerised companion, ALISON, the same question: why is he there? A clue comes from a child outside who begins a telepathic discourse with him. This awful dream causes a depressed Nathan, the assassin, to continue the second half of the story as he goes on a spiritual quest of atonement with another former assassin, SAMSON, cross southern India, followed by an escape to England after another enforced kill job. Twenty-two years later, Nathan is wiser yet still depressed, so Samson attempts to cheer him up at a masked orgy where young lady seduces him. The following experiences leads Nathan to question everything he knows...

Adriana van Daemon never meant to open the cursed book. She never meant to summon the vision that nearly killed her. Rescued by the time-traveller Orl f-once servant to Satan himself-Adriana flees through a living sanctuary built from the Tree of Life. Armed with Orl f's curved mirror, which reveals three timelines at once, she must endure deadly journeys through fractured realities to reclaim her soul. But the deeper Adriana travels, the more she transforms-becoming Georgina, a being whose true origin is darker and more extraordinary than she ever imagined. Across timelines, Jeffrey Lowmax's stolen body and Petra's haunted life converge with Georgina's fate in a cosmic struggle where nothing is as it seems-yet everything is connected.