Kirjahaku

A powerful and compelling memoir of growing up with a schizophrenic father, who hid his mental illness behind a charismatic larger-than-life, gluttonous personality and found logical explanations for the most bizarre ways of thinking. As a child Julie was close to her father. More friend than parent, he would belt her into their tiny car and they'd punch through yellow lights, scarf down candy bars before supper and had their own way of making fun of Julie's mother in a secret language of eye-rolling. She adored her father for his exuberance, and pitied him when he broke down in suicidal desperation. But as she neared 10, a darker side emerged: her father could switch instantly from squeaking out a tear as they harmonized to "Hey Jude" in the car, to pulling his loaded pistol on the man that asked for change in the McDonald's drive-thru as they waited. The isolation that came with the family's move to the country saw the wacky, unorthodox elements of her father's denied mental illness take a back seat to paranoid fear. Her father would tell her any boy who befriended her was just pretend-acting until he could rape her, and Julie came to fear all boys and men. He fell ever deeper into paranoid delusions that his daughter was sexually active, prostituting herself, sneaking out at night to sleep with black men. When Julie was 14 her father attempted suicide and was placed in a locked psychiatric ward. Julie was made to testify against her father, and when he was released he became convinced she had turned on him. Julie became the target of his ever more paranoid delusions. Julie left home before 18 but her father's schizophrenic behaviour bled over into her own life: if she couldn't find the hairdryer, she would check for signs of entry. When it later turned up, she would wonder how the thief broke back in to return it. Confused, lost and damaged from years spent as the only confidante of her paranoid schizophrenic father, but determined to survive, Julie was finally able to come to terms with her father. She was her father's keeper, and always would be.

A young girl is perched on the cold chrome of yet another doctor's examining table, missing yet another day of school.

An unusual memoir describes growing up as the victim of Munchausen by proxy, a dangerous form of child abuse in which her mother invented or caused a series of illnesses and ailments, and her struggle to escape her mother's serious psychological problems to rebuild her life as a healthy, compassionate young woman. Reprint. 50,000 first printing.

Julie Gregory överlevde Münchhausen by proxy, förmodligen den mest komplicerade och dödsbringande formen av barnmisshandel som är känd idag. Från sin tidiga barndom blev Julie Gregory regelbundet röntgad, opererad och medicinerad i en fåfäng kamp mot sjukdomar som skapades i hennes mors fantasi. Münchhausen by proxy (MBP) är världens hemligaste och farligaste form av barnmisshandel där vårdnadshavaren, oftast modern, uppfinner symtomen hos sitt barn därför att hon eftersträvar läkarnas uppmärksamhet. Många MBP-barn dör men Julie inte bara överlevde, hon undkom sin mors dödsbringande galenskap och byggde upp en ny identitet som en levande, frisk ung kvinna. Mamma sa att jag var sjuk är en originell, skrämmande, vacker och humoristisk berättelse om en familj som lever isolerad i en jättehusvagn, om deras vilda shoppingseanser, om vapenexercis i rädsla för omvärlden och om godtrogenhet hos medicinska och sociala befattningshavare. Den visar också de band av kärlek och terror som håller Julies familj samman, och även den kärlek som gör ett barn villigt att offra sig själv för sin mammas lycka.