""Its a full on one person, invite only, free bar, pity party. Not for the faint hearted. Its not meant to help anyone but me, and me alone. But if you are here reading this, you are at least warned & of course welcomed. Ronnie Joe our first grandchild died suddenly and unexpectantly August 2022, very nearly just 12 weeks old. A beautiful baby, bright eyes and already smiling. Very much loved and missed always. These words are the ramblings and reason of my broken heart. Collecting them here has helped me a little in managing the emotions that a time like this will throw at you. I hope you never know it.""