Michael B Kaminski

There are times when we tend to take our lives for granted and not appreciate the precious gift of life that we have been given. That is the way I lived most of my life. THEN I DIED IN A COMA. Have you ever thought about what it would be like to die?Have you ever transcended or attempted to visualize AFTERLIFE, life after death? "THE MIRACLE OF ROOM 405" presents a vision of my life, death, and Rebirth when no one believed that I would live, Now, I believe God saved my life, returned me to this world, and transformed me because I still have unfinished work to accomplish and goals to achieve. God has given me a wonderful glimpse and vision of Eternity before my final "Expiration Date" and my "shelf life" comes to an end. Now, come with me to experience "THE MIRACLE OF ROOM 405".

Murder, corruption, sanctioned killings, and destroyed lives still haunt an alcoholic ex-narcotics detective as he prepares for ordination in seminary. He seeks forgiveness and redemption as he confronts his shadowy past in the dark cave of his psyche and soul.LIFE AFTER RUSSIAN ROULETTE: REDEMPTION is a psychological thriller based on true accounts of the life of Michael B. Kaminski during the years he was an undercover police detective in Baltimore, Maryland during the 1970's.Immersed in an underworld of drug groups, organized crime associations, and police corruption, Kaminski became addicted to "the game" as he wrestled mentally, psychologically, and emotionally with illegal, unethical, and immoral choices and decisions. The lines of right and wrong, good and bad began to blur before his eyes as he justified the end goal. Living under three fictitious identities for almost five years, Kaminski's conscience created a moral downslide that inevitably led to depression, suicidal thoughts, and mentally destructive behaviors as he numbed his true feelings and loss of personal identity with increased addiction to alcohol.After resigning from the police department with three contracts out on his life, and after two failed attempts to kill him, Kaminski went to work as a licensed private investigator for the criminal lawyers that he worked against when he was undercover.Eventually, a near-fatal accident almost ended his life. High on morphine in an unknown hospital, Kaminski would make a commitment to God for saving his life again. After entering a seminary and receiving ordination, Kaminski struggled with his faith. Finally, he would find what he had been searching for all his life.At first glance, you might think you know how police and undercover detectives work. But you could be dead wrong. How an individual enforces the law, many times, is reduced to personal decisions. Hidden within the plot of this story is a series of inner conflicts that many people in law enforcement make in the line of duty.

Every book has a soul. It is the reflection of the author who created the story. "DARK SOUL" is an exploration into my soul. "DARK SOUL" is written in the form of a personal journey into the darkness of my soul in quest of finding my way through the wilderness of my life for the last forty-three in search of finding redemption, forgiveness, peace and, hopefully, making amends for my actions as an undercover police detective in the underworld of drug groups and organized crime associations. Throughout those forty-three years, I have lived with and been confronted by, many times, the dark shadowy images of the people I either killed or helped to kill in my past. Now, you will be with me as I prepare to enter the "cave" of my mind and psyche in an attempt to heal my soul. However, do not judge this book by its cover.Like the shadows of the dark figures in Plato's "Allegory of the Cave" in "THE REPUBLIC", our thoughts, emotions, actions, and behaviors working within our conscious and sub-conscious minds provide us with a form of indirect lighting presenting a superficial, and often inaccurate, distorted image and understanding of our true "SELF". We justify our actions and behaviors, we create situations that violate our personal belief systems.Written as a sequel to "LIFE AFTER RUSSIAN ROULETTE: REDEMPTION", the goal at the end of our journey together will, hopefully, be an experience that will shed a powerful light on the psychological, mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical inner battles that have affected my soul in the past, changed my personality and perception of my "SELF"Personally, I believe that everyone has a hidden dark side because of their past, whether or not they want to acknowledge or admit it. I think we all have made choices and decisions that we regret when we reflect o our past life. In the end, hopeful, my story will inspire you to take a personal journey into the "cave" of your mind and psyche to better understand the life of your soul.